Thursday, October 1, 2015

Now that I'm 30...

So, I've been 30 for a week and a half now. Not much has changed. I'm still writing, I'm still broke, I'm still counting down the days until my vacation cruise (22 days!), and I'm still working full time, four days a week. 

But, I do think that I need to focus on a lot of things, and maybe by writing mine out, I can help you guys.
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Now that I'm 30, I'll try to stop obsessing over numbers. 

I've lived three decades. My 20's are gone. Finito. Just obliterated. 

There is this scene in the cinematic masterpiece, The Decoy Bride, where our heroine, Katie, almost drowns. When she's rescued, she says, "My entire life flashed before my eyes. Halfway through I was just bored!"

Sadly, this is where I am right now. Aside from graduating college, and that year when I thought my book was hot stuff (despite what sales told me), I honestly don't have anything that I want to recall that isn't vacation-related (22 days!). And that is so depressing to me. Which brings my to my next point.

Now that I'm 30, I'll push myself to get outside my comfort zone.

I used to be a social butterfly. In college, I was always out with friends, doing stuff, running up and down Broadway, painting Columbia Red. The year that followed graduation, I was torn down so badly that I'm still trying to recover, six years later. There was a year or two after when I was still going out, making friends, but no bosom friends. All my great friends are from college. I'm still trying to make friends as an adult. Hell, I haven't even had a legit date since about 2008. Talk about depressing.

"I've gone man vegan. They say after seven years, you don't notice."
But, I've signed up for MeetUp.com to meet people in the area with similar interests. If I meet a man from this group, color me stunned. I won't be holding my breath. 

I did decide to sign up for a dating service after I return from vacation (22 days!). Probably Christian Mingle. My friends, John and Dinah met there, and CM seems less intimidating (and costly) than eHarmony.

I can't begin to stress how much I DON'T want to date online. But I'm going to do it. Because I'm 30.

Now that I'm 30, I'm going to learn some new skills

Have you ever heard of Codecademy before? It's a free service that teaches you different computer languages and programs to broaden your hireability. How about Skillcrush? They're another company that teaches you to code, but with an emphasis on their Career Blueprints, which can lead you into a new line of work that is extremely rewarding. I just finished their 10 day boot camp, and it was very interesting, and was explained very well. My plan is to save up the money for their Web Developer Career Blueprint, a 3-month class that is offered annually, and hopefully start to build up a side business to really make something of myself. And pay off my student loans. Aren't your 30's when you finally come into money?

Maybe one day I can be this smarmy.

Now that I'm 30, I'm going to go back to keeping a journal.

I used to write all the freaking time. In notebooks, in journals, if I had a pen, I would write on a piece of scrap paper, just to get my thoughts out of my head. I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of feelings, and that's how I would get them out and try to solve them.

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Last week, the day before my birthday, I bought a journal at Walgreens that is green with dandelions etched on the leather cover, and it's got a ribbon bookmark and a magnetic closure on the front. It also says the word "Believe." I bought it because I wanted to start a prayer journal. I'm terrible at remembering to pray, which is ridiculous, because as I Christian, I should want nothing more than to cry out to my Creator for a good conversation. But how do you talk to the One who made the heavens and the earth? The one who designed the person you're meant to be to find oiut what you need to be? 

That's why I got the journal. I've paired it with a couple Bible Studies from YouVersion, a free Bible Study app which has TONS of studies from big name people like Joyce Meyer, Kari Jobe, and Billy Graham. I'm currently working through three, one on prayer, one on starting your day with Jesus, and also a read through the Bible in a year plan. What have I learned? 

So far? That I'll never be perfect, but that God doesn't care, so long as I have a repentant heart, and a desire to live my life on His terms. And they're not bad terms. At all. 

The journal is also to remember to pray for certain people, because I never remember to pray for people, which is a horrible thing for me to not do, as a Christian. 

But mostly, now that I'm 30, I'm going to get a freaking life.

By now, you've probably figured out that I'm a hardcore introvert who'd rather stay in and watch TV than go out around the people. If I wasn't, then the resolution to get out more wouldn't be on here. I haven't decided if I want to get married and have children or not. I'm so disenchanted with the world that the idea of me finding someone to share my life with is kind of crazy. It's remembered in my prayer journal, but we'll see what happens. 

The point of getting a life isn't to find a boyfriend or husband, it's be be fulfilled, and to be able to give my best to people. I want to live a joyous, active, adventurous life that isn't walled in by worldly convention. I want to la-la-la-la-live out loud, to coin a phrase by Steven Curtis Chapman. 

  • Please tell me I'm not the only one with decade resolutions.
  • Tell me yours. You know you want to.
  • What's your favorite adventure?
  • Have I mentioned I'm going on vacation in 22 days?!

5 comments:

  1. This is a random note: I've used codacademy and it's great but I've been using FreeCodeCamp and I enjoy it like a thousand times more than that. You should check it out. :)

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  2. This is a random note: I've used codacademy and it's great but I've been using FreeCodeCamp and I enjoy it like a thousand times more than that. You should check it out. :)

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  3. That quote is hilarious and yet so true. Social media shows you all of these people doing fabulous, exciting things all the time and I'm over here at work the majority of the time keeping them bills paid. I love what you said about living a joyous, active, adventurous life. No matter, this is something we can do if we make the effort. You are taking several steps to get what you want so you are on your way.

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    1. Social media has been so bad for that. There's this quote that says something like "Stop comparing your movie to someone else's highlight reel." Everyone has those boring days they'll never remember. But "The Decoy Bride" is a great movie everyone should watch over and over again. :-)

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