Sunday, June 30, 2013

A Roller Coaster Week Of Emotions

Sorry if I've been a little incommunicado this week. It's been the week from HELL. I only wish I were kidding. My emotions have been run through the wringer this week, and it's been several highs and several lows. I've cried more this week than I have in a long time, and I'm just ready to throw in the towel.

For starters, last week there were constant rumors that my company was going to do layoffs, and if you weren't in one of the meetings they scheduled, you were out.

I wasn't in a meeting last Tuesday.

The next day, people tried their best to clear the air, but not one of the members of upper management ever said that the rumors were untrue. I'm still pretty wary about going back tomorrow.

Oh, yeah. That's right. Tomorrow. Thinking this week would be amazing, I opted to move my regular day off, Monday, to Friday, so I could get a five-day weekend for Independence Day. I'm mentally spent just thinking about going to work tomorrow, especially with rumors going about. It's like living in season one of The Office, only without the comic stylings of Mr. Jim Halpert.

But, let's not get ahead of ourselves. While I'm not crazy about my job, I don't want to be laid off. Mostly, the Chick Lit Goddesses on Facebook talked me through it (you girls are amazeballs!), and I was looking to see what else is out there. I hate job hunting so much, it exhausts me just thinking about it.

Well, the rest of the week was pretty uneventful until yesterday. I don't talk about her that much on here, because I don't see her much anymore, but my high school best friend and I used to be so close. Almost sisters, or so I'd thought. When we get together, things are like they were back then. Relaxing and just fun.

I've been unable to get in contact with her for months. Probably since November. I've never been good at making friends, because I'm a pretty introverted person, but she and I somehow hit it off at Theater Day Camp back in 1998. Yesterday, my mom and I decided to go see Monsters University (Super cute, by the way), but while we waited in line for tickets, we saw her. She was chatting with another girl, and I called her over (I'm shameless when I want to talk to someone), but she looked right at us, half-heartedly waved and then walked out. It was like a knife to the heart. She's my oldest friend, and frankly, I think I deserve some kind of explanation. It hurt me so much, I could barely enjoy the movie (which was, ironically, about friendship).

I've always felt like I was the one that tried hardest on out friendship. Whenever we got together in the past, I guess the blinders finally came off, but she was the one who wanted to know if I was available, like all of her other friends were busy.

That really put a damper on my weekend. It made me really homesick for my friend, Lauren, who I feel really is my soulmate of a best friend, and we had a tentative Skype date scheduled. She always makes me feel better.
Santa Fe, 2010 on the Best Road Trip Ever!!!

In Omaha at a Bible Study Dance, 2011

Which brings us to the next blow to this week: My phone died. Like, it's a rubbery, purple paper weight now. I don't know what happened, but yesterday, it wouldn't turn on, and the charging light wouldn't come on, either. I've done every reset I could find on the internet, but she's dead. Not Mostly Dead, but ALL dead.
Yeah. Miracle Max wouldn't have been able to bring my phone back like he did Westley/The Dread Pirate Roberts (Please tell me you get these references!). So, I'd more or less decided on getting the Motorola Droid Razr M, until I actually saw it at Best Buy. It's about the same size as my Rhyme, and I really wanted a bigger screen, so instead, I opted for the Samsung Galaxy Nexus, which was also free. Get up to the counter, start my upgrade and...bill is past due, and none of us could afford the payment right. *Sad Trombone*

Meet my old phone, the LG enV Touch. After having a smartphone for a year and a half, going back to a feature phone is WEIRD! I should only have to wait for a couple days, but it still kind of sucks. You get so used to a responsive touchscreen and autocorrect that not having them is throwing me off. A LOT.

I'm nervous about what the rest of the week will bring, but I did have some good things! I promise!

For one, I finished How I made $42,000 in 1 Month Selling My Kindle eBooks by Cheryl Kaye Tardif and it was so informative and so motivating. I've joined the websites she recommended for marketing and social networking, and while I haven't seen extra sales yet, I hope to soon. I especially hope to finish my second book and have it published soon. I've asked my editors to PLEASE get back to me as soon as possible, and I even described the cover to my designer friend, Lindsay Shoemaker. Things are falling into place, and then I can do a lot more for marketing, which was outlined in the book (and yes, I will follow it word-for-word if I have an opportunity to make $42k in a month!). I hope to get a review up later this week because it was that good of a book.

So, seriously, more lows than highs, but I really hope that this week is much better. I'm bracing myself, though, because I just feel like something is coming that I don't want to face.

That being said, since it'll be my one year publish-aversary of Sugar and Spies, I've dropped the sale of my book to $1.99 on all eBook avenues. Check them out!

Sony eReader

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