Skip to main content

A Roller Coaster Week Of Emotions

Sorry if I've been a little incommunicado this week. It's been the week from HELL. I only wish I were kidding. My emotions have been run through the wringer this week, and it's been several highs and several lows. I've cried more this week than I have in a long time, and I'm just ready to throw in the towel.

For starters, last week there were constant rumors that my company was going to do layoffs, and if you weren't in one of the meetings they scheduled, you were out.

I wasn't in a meeting last Tuesday.

The next day, people tried their best to clear the air, but not one of the members of upper management ever said that the rumors were untrue. I'm still pretty wary about going back tomorrow.

Oh, yeah. That's right. Tomorrow. Thinking this week would be amazing, I opted to move my regular day off, Monday, to Friday, so I could get a five-day weekend for Independence Day. I'm mentally spent just thinking about going to work tomorrow, especially with rumors going about. It's like living in season one of The Office, only without the comic stylings of Mr. Jim Halpert.

But, let's not get ahead of ourselves. While I'm not crazy about my job, I don't want to be laid off. Mostly, the Chick Lit Goddesses on Facebook talked me through it (you girls are amazeballs!), and I was looking to see what else is out there. I hate job hunting so much, it exhausts me just thinking about it.

Well, the rest of the week was pretty uneventful until yesterday. I don't talk about her that much on here, because I don't see her much anymore, but my high school best friend and I used to be so close. Almost sisters, or so I'd thought. When we get together, things are like they were back then. Relaxing and just fun.

I've been unable to get in contact with her for months. Probably since November. I've never been good at making friends, because I'm a pretty introverted person, but she and I somehow hit it off at Theater Day Camp back in 1998. Yesterday, my mom and I decided to go see Monsters University (Super cute, by the way), but while we waited in line for tickets, we saw her. She was chatting with another girl, and I called her over (I'm shameless when I want to talk to someone), but she looked right at us, half-heartedly waved and then walked out. It was like a knife to the heart. She's my oldest friend, and frankly, I think I deserve some kind of explanation. It hurt me so much, I could barely enjoy the movie (which was, ironically, about friendship).

I've always felt like I was the one that tried hardest on out friendship. Whenever we got together in the past, I guess the blinders finally came off, but she was the one who wanted to know if I was available, like all of her other friends were busy.

That really put a damper on my weekend. It made me really homesick for my friend, Lauren, who I feel really is my soulmate of a best friend, and we had a tentative Skype date scheduled. She always makes me feel better.
Santa Fe, 2010 on the Best Road Trip Ever!!!

In Omaha at a Bible Study Dance, 2011

Which brings us to the next blow to this week: My phone died. Like, it's a rubbery, purple paper weight now. I don't know what happened, but yesterday, it wouldn't turn on, and the charging light wouldn't come on, either. I've done every reset I could find on the internet, but she's dead. Not Mostly Dead, but ALL dead.
Yeah. Miracle Max wouldn't have been able to bring my phone back like he did Westley/The Dread Pirate Roberts (Please tell me you get these references!). So, I'd more or less decided on getting the Motorola Droid Razr M, until I actually saw it at Best Buy. It's about the same size as my Rhyme, and I really wanted a bigger screen, so instead, I opted for the Samsung Galaxy Nexus, which was also free. Get up to the counter, start my upgrade and...bill is past due, and none of us could afford the payment right. *Sad Trombone*

Meet my old phone, the LG enV Touch. After having a smartphone for a year and a half, going back to a feature phone is WEIRD! I should only have to wait for a couple days, but it still kind of sucks. You get so used to a responsive touchscreen and autocorrect that not having them is throwing me off. A LOT.

I'm nervous about what the rest of the week will bring, but I did have some good things! I promise!

For one, I finished How I made $42,000 in 1 Month Selling My Kindle eBooks by Cheryl Kaye Tardif and it was so informative and so motivating. I've joined the websites she recommended for marketing and social networking, and while I haven't seen extra sales yet, I hope to soon. I especially hope to finish my second book and have it published soon. I've asked my editors to PLEASE get back to me as soon as possible, and I even described the cover to my designer friend, Lindsay Shoemaker. Things are falling into place, and then I can do a lot more for marketing, which was outlined in the book (and yes, I will follow it word-for-word if I have an opportunity to make $42k in a month!). I hope to get a review up later this week because it was that good of a book.

So, seriously, more lows than highs, but I really hope that this week is much better. I'm bracing myself, though, because I just feel like something is coming that I don't want to face.

That being said, since it'll be my one year publish-aversary of Sugar and Spies, I've dropped the sale of my book to $1.99 on all eBook avenues. Check them out!

Sony eReader


Popular posts from this blog

I'm Moving!

Talk about a long hiatus!

So, things have been happening, or rather, things have been stalling, and I've decided that I need to actually do things in order to achieve what I want to in life. Where I want my writing to go, and what I want to dedicate my blog to.

When I first started MJA I had no idea what I wanted in a blog. I just wanted to write, and I hoped that the readers would follow me. And it took awhile, but you have! But I've been terrible at keeping up with this blog because I was trying to turn it into something that it just couldn't be.

I'm an author, first and foremost, and upon meeting other writers, I've learned so much and want to pass on that education to others, like they've passed on to me.

That said, The Modern Jane Austen isn't going to be getting updates anymore. This is a blog where I wrote about my life, some reviews here and there, and just a few tidbits about my writing journey. But it was mostly a confused mess, IMO, and I've …

September Musings on Writing

Another year has gone by.

I'm 20 days out from my 31st birthday.

I'm 24 days out from embarking on my first cruise to Canada.

I'm thismuch closer to finishing a second manuscript this year.

So, it's shaping up to be a pretty exciting month for me. I'd REALLY like to finish both manuscripts so that I can get to working on their second drafts before NaNoWriMo kicks off in November.

Yes. I'm using my thirties as I should've used my twenties: As someone who wants to write books for a living. Novel concept right?

But honestly. Six years ago when I started at my current job, I was under the illusion that what happened to Amanda Hocking would happen to me. Haha! I was so cute and naive when I was 25.

The last year or so, I've tried really hard to understand what it means to be an independent or self-published author. How you have to put your best work out there, not just the crappy first draft that you were just relieved to finish. That editors want to help yo…

Free Money! 3 Tips For Giving Plasma

Today, I wanted to talk to you about giving Plasma. Plasma is the liquid part of your blood that carries your blood cells all around your body. When you give plasma, they use it to make medication, and it also helps patients who have experienced trauma, have bleeding disorders, and more. I started giving Plasma back in 2007 when gas prices were upwards of $4 a gallon in Missouri, where I was living and needed all the extra money I could get. At the time, I got about $40/donation, but now I give through OctaPharma here in CB, with different pricing (It varies based on your weight).

It hasn't always been easy, though. A few years ago, I was unable to keep giving, and I couldn't figure out why. When I went back to try to raise money for an upcoming vacation the first few times I tried, my protein levels were either too low or at the bare minimum, so I thought I'd share some tips that help.

1. Three hours before you go, start eating something with protein.  I usually give in t…